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Posted on 24 July 2026
I’ve been always thinking about writing but having my own blog is something that not even the overthinking version (not that it’s gone but it’s way less now lol) would have though of. I thought so much what should I start with and I got to the conclusion that since it’s the first thing I will actually put on the wide web I’d start with talking about me and who is actually that person who will write what version of me will I put on the web for the public.
To start things of I need to start with saying that this is a raw version no copy editing no ai it’s just thoughts of someone who has exactly no experience writing shit (yeah this might be an explicit version as well so expect F bombs here and there lol) and also no ai will be used (whoah ahmad not using ai to write anything is so 2022 lol) maybe sometime in the near future if I actually publish any other blogs I’d ask any of the very creative writers or copy editors I work with to actually give me there thoughts.
Anywho Hi guys this is your friendly neighborhood Software engineer writing, life lately has been so weird but actually good weird and stable which makes it so weird for me because usually I’m the type of person who just goes with the flow no plans no nothing just water and hoping for the best hoping for no waterfall that would fuck me over or destroy whatever very short sighted plan I had but lately I have been surprising myself in a way where I sleep at night knowing what is the plan for the next week ffs I go to therapy now and ngl that is one of the best things I have ever done for myself it’s as good as buying myself a Funko pop.
Being software engineer in the world where ai can give you an MVP in a couple of hours with good prompt should have been something so uncomfortable but I’m so proud to say that I can use ai good I can get shit done (pun intended because thats an ai skill set that I actually use in my life on a daily basis) so yeah I’m a 10x engineer somehow and I build things that I really don’t understand in a matter of hours instead of weeks now. But currently I’m an ai engineer in a media agency and one of the most successful ones in the region (as per the CEO I had no clue it existed before joining lol) and thats actually one of the aspects I love about my new life, I mean don’t get me wrong it’s stressful as fuck I work weekends and I work around the clock but I actually half like it the systems we are building as a team is mind blowing and dealing with so many creative people daily is pushing me out of my zone which is something I usually tend to not accept because lets take a moment and be honest together who does? Who wants to get out of there comfort zone I mean thats the whole idea of a comfort zone which is so different from a person to another and so different within the same person from time to time so I’d love to say that I’m building a new comfort zone for myself.
One other aspect I really love to talk about is therapy getting professional help is something that I always needed my whole life every version of myself needed that shit needed to dumb his ideas and thoughts out loud not because it was harmful (sometimes it was lol) but because dumbing it out gave me space to actually think about it and find solutions, my therapy sessions have been all just me talking and my therapist listing and within my speech I tell her what I should do and it turns out that all I needed was to get these thoughts out of my mind and into the real world state them right just open your fucking mouth and say the words out loud it will all make sense somehow, again thats me and how it worked out for me that might not be the case for anyone else but it worked for me.
Now that I’m here I wanna say that since that is my firs blog I need you to know that I’m using my own website and writing my own words so thats my own fucking world no one here is right but me thats not me being a narcissist but me saying that my ideas are different I believe in shit that might not make sense so don’t judge or judge but keep it in your mind this is not a therapy session lol and not a debate unless you knew beforehand that I’m working on my blog only in that case can you actually tell me your opinion and how shit my writing is.
Anyway lets tackle another point that I really wanna write about which is myself as I wasn’t always my biggest fan I had issues with myself I hated a lot about me (still do Hamada Is not as cool as I need him to be yet) but currently thats a very better version that I actually root for I’m so proud of myself I got myself together after so much shit I have accepted and put myself into at some point in my life I was actually searching for the quit button (insert that Arteta photo) but looking back I always say damn I hated that bitch he was moaning so much I mean yeah he went through hell but come on man you did that to yourself you accepted all of that shit I mean yeah I had my reasons to accept back then but you had options anyway lets not be harsh on young Hamada he got what he deserved and it’s the reason why that new version is here writing this bullshit now it’s the reason I’m able to think this way, have all these dreams and believing 100% I’ll make them; thinking of Brazil, thinking about having a personal blog like I’m fucking Sam Altman in fucking 2010 ( we hate Sam but he came to my mind first sorry) , thinking about getting into Forbes 30 under 30 ( which is next in line for the next blog (get spoiled)) and thinking of VoidCore
To conclude (that felt like a the writing task I had back in school lol) that was my first trial to actually write something with the intention of actually publishing it and I really pressed on the breaks to not dumb everything right here and I said to myself out loud so many times writing this that is not me journaling so get it together and make this interesting anyway I’ll go check on claude building my blog post website because I’m a full time writer now and I hope anyone who actually gave me sometime to read this a great life and thank you all for staying here and seeing all of these versions see ya. <3